“why is it I cannot control my self these days?”

My head is spinning or I am in a daze.

I cannot figure what am I suppose to do?

Am I to stay or forever leave you?

Everything is a fight, so many things I cannot find,

What is going on in this head of mine?

About to snap and loose it, I am on the edge of life,

Because I do not know how to keep up on my fight.

God will you keep me safe, till I can hold my own head up high?

Although I often say it, I really don’t want to die.