falling into the booze routine tonight, WHY? it makes me FEEL BETTER, can you say it does not? AHHHH but I am tired now, and for some reason I want to write, I have so much to say, and yet…………….IT’S TO DIFFICULT TO TYPE.:( UGH              I THINK I MAY BE FALLING FROM THE  ” I’M GONNA DO GOOD AND TRY HARDER” SHIT. why try if SO MANY PEOPLE BRING YOU DOWN?. I DON’T HAVE THE STRENGTH ESPECIALLY WHEN I AM GROWN. DOES THE DRAMA END? REALLY? WHEN? YA, I THOUGHT YOU SAID NEVER.      To a certain someone, you know who you are. I DON’T MEAN YOU.